It’s hot and muggy and I’m sick of the air conditioning. So during the day I sometimes open up and leave it off, but I eventually feel wilted and cranky, byproducts of the MS, so in the evening it usually goes back on. Sometimes I gauge my cat’s behavior on whether the air needs to go on: If he’s lying completely stretched out and long on his back and his eyes look glazed, it’s probably time for some cool air.
On this topic, I have to admit that I’m a somewhat moody person. Just like the weather, there are days when I feel sunny and temperate, brisk and aloof, cold and not open to conversation, misty and sad, and hot and volatile. Doesn’t everyone? I like to think that I’m not the only moody person out there, and I do have a way of reigning it in when situations call for it. I think over the years I have learned to better control my emotions when I need to—- something challenging for fiery Aries people who pretty much wear their thoughts and emotions on their sleeves. Nevertheless, I try to make a conscious effort to keep calm and not overreact.
Yesterday was definitely a foul weather day and I know that I lashed out with immediate anger towards a loved one (you know who you are…..) But in my defense, I do keep the dramatics to a minimum, and sometimes people with chronic illness need to just vent and be heard. No replies necessary. And I in turn need to realize that others often also have a lot on their plates (medical, financial, and such) and learn to respond with a little less ZEAL? Is that the correct word?…………Let’s meet in the middle.